This past weekend it was my Mom's, two Aunt's and Dad's birthday. I am surrounded by Pisces, which has taught me a lot (especially since my emotions have been a challenge for me). I went home to Philadelphia to celebrate and it was amazing. To be around the people who shaped my personality, my style, my values and so much more was reaffirming.
For the past two weeks I've been feeling lost and unfocused. Why am I here? What am I doing? What's my next step? These questions running in my head and heart. But being with my family... being with my family reminded me of what I'm working towards. Of what I visioned my life being. Of the love I have in my heart and the love I have around me. My family is my home. They always remind me of the greatness and creativity that has been pass on through the generations. They remind me of my history.
After a powerful energy weekend I came home to Brooklyn and watched a documentary on Maya Angelou. Her story, her struggle, her strength, her courage to be herself, share her voice and be honest. This gave me the inspiration, the guidance I needed to refocus on what my purpose is. Art is my reason for existing, my ancestors are my reason for creating, my story is my reason for sharing, and my life is my reason to take action. We are only here for a short amount time; it is my goal to make my life a testimonial to what an be achieved if you focus and live true to yourself.
Sacrifice is inevitable, pain is inevitable but out of these things can come greatness. I look at Nina Simone and her pain, but she inspired generations! She lived a life of loneliness, of depression, of pain and her Art is what kept her alive. Her voice, her words, her grander made people stop and focus their energy on her. Her ability to take pain and create life changing Art is what will live and motivate billions of people.
I think of my own family, my mom, my aunts, my god-mom, my grandmothers; these black women overcame mental and emotional abuse and carried strength to survive so I can live the life I live. My great ancestors survived the oppression and depression of the white man's world, fought for rights, expressed emotion, worked tirelessly and passed on decades of wisdom through DNA. I am so thankful for all those who came before me so I can continue on the legacy of my roots.
Remember where you come from and live in that greatness with every breathe.
My mom and her wife
My mom and I
My Grandma Janice
My family (little cousin, uncle, my grandma Lena, aunt Tim & myself)